"I keep waiting for my ship to come in, and all I ever get is the tide."---Jim Croce
Living my real life has always eluded me. How do you get what you want? How do you afford it? How do you break free of the things that keep you from happiness? When are you too sick, too tired, too old to do this? When is it time to give up?
These are all questions that occupy my mind. I have known from quite a young age exactly what it was I wanted out of life. And yet, my circumstances have always seemed to conspire to keep me from having it. I've tried. I've come close. But never any cigar. I am beginning to wonder if it's even possible in this day and age. Everything seems so complicated, so fast, so frenetic. I've had trouble keeping up with this world all my life. To be honest, I never really could. And it just gets worse. Faster, louder, tougher, more expensive, more crowded.
I don't know what to do about it. I feel woefully inadequate and not up to the task. I'm tired. I'm confused. I get sad and depressed.
